first evening, tone-setting, Usagi once said, the beginning tints all thereafter, kebab styled cumin roasted mushroom onion, garlic yoghurt dip, olives, pickled chili, asparagus in lemon butter, Turkish bread, tea with Vodka, hours of chatting, China, Germany, Communism, Socialism, War, now, future, potential BBQ with neighbors, summer wishes.
first meal out, traditional German fried chicken, currywurst, beer, beers, strolling xberg, pre-labour march polizei, mosquitos by the canal.
sun intense, out walk towards südstern, beers, walk, chant, friends who photos, beers, bar, smoke, beers, walk home, silence after it all.
early afternoon gallery hop, charlottenburg, high ceilings, marble stairways, rain, intense allergy, yellow linden dust storm, HongKong lamb casserole. (unrealized)Mahjong date. potential cat-setter. too early too optimistic short-sleeve choice.
sunday walkshop early, sole-attender, hills made of rumble, what lifts perspective, what curates, between hiding and erasing, Roma and Sinti memorial, sometimes the care given is not received, resolution fallacy, realizing my anger coming back, my ability to exercise just anger, what ludicrous man who tries to get on my good side, sorry I’m allergic to “land-lords”. Sworn allegiance to the “stupid” naivety, against the sober pragmatic power-money sucking machinery.
island of white people fetishizing asian market, overpriced cheap ingredient substituted pho, where do people feel belong, where do people perform local, where performing becoming realer, humbolt sociology, student lecture, passive listeners, star-ish lecturer, rude? too busy sucking up star-er academics, no space for genuine conversation, polish loser not open. volksbühne joint, vague sound street performance.
US star academics on exile, star art cultural space wedding, old people indulging in self-revelatory concept juggling, affect is already always affecting. how about do with less “me-head-first”? beers, always, long walk towards pberg, endless search finding pee spot, m10 warschauer, kotti, which route is getting quieter? Tram only on East side.
right next door to she who does not answer. mediocre coffee, mariokart, nintendo-projector consortium that needs special magic conjuring productivity, basketbal watch others play while trying not to get hit, luck, lamb pilav, mediocre, weed, superb, more mariokart, normal friend gathering vibe. does not nourish me anymore. or has it ever?
Slime divination, slime, sticky, divination, cosmology, flow, market, sun, jianbing, showingoff Turkish, slow dozing, observing no shopping desire, no material possessing interest, game, chat, wide-eyed artist enter the stage. laughter, long journey pberg, smoking, cooking, german, polish wurst, potato two ways, polish horseradish cranberry jam, games I lose so hard, love, re-iterating not as convincing.
running into food market, meeting wide-eyed artist, watermelon, sticky fingers, grocery shopping, coffee sun, ritual date set, unsure about atmosphere change when age gap reveal, call for healing, realize boundary between sharing and extraction. fresh plump coriander, mint, carrot, radish, tofu, lime, made-up fish sauce flavor with wurchestershire sauce, soy cause, sugar, tobasco, soul satisfying, where to place this sentimental sadness?
Permenant and Pertinent Resi(st)dance 